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Title: A Splitting Of The Mind
Author: shoved2agree
Fandom: MCR
Pairing: Frank/Gerard
POV: 1st Person – Gerard
Rating: R/NC-17
Beta: yaminoshugoshin
Word Count: Approx 140k words

Disclaimer: Fake.
Warnings: Mentions of past rape, PTSD, schizophrenia, mental illness, adult themes, swearing, blood, mentions of gun violence, hallucinations, sex, death.

Summary: Gerard Way sees the world differently. Alone and institutionalised, Gerard claims that he is being hunted, and that his mind holds the key to existence. Does Gerard really hold such a powerful secret? Or is he just insane like everyone else in the institution?

EDIT: Please DO NOT repost my material ANYWHERE without my permission. This is something I am very serious about. Of course, posting excerpts or quotes is completely fine and I encourage that but reposting entire chapters on rival fanfiction sites without my permission and without crediting me is not acceptable and I will TAKE. YOU. DOWN. Otherwise, please enjoy :)

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20

Frequently Asked Questions (Contains Spoilers)

Download link here on AO3.

Author’s Notes: I posted the first chapter of this story in 2007. At the time, Gerard and Frank were unmarried, childless and pretty damn friendly with each other. I posted the last chapter of the story in 2011, almost 3.5 years since I began. Over this time, thousands of people have visited my journal and (presumably) read this story. Thank you to all those who have taken the time to read my work, and a special thanks to those who have taken the time to leave a comment letting me know how much you liked/loved/hated what I’d written.


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Jul. 11th, 2011 06:21 am (UTC)
This was the first fic I ever read, first time I was ever open to the wonderful world of livejournal, and I found it by accident on chapter 6 one day on google. That was the greatest whoops ever. To this day, this is my favorite thing ever written.
Jul. 12th, 2011 08:54 am (UTC)
:D Thank youuuuu!
Jul. 16th, 2011 08:22 pm (UTC)
God, I don't even have words to say how much I love your fic. It's impossible to express.
This was my first fic too.
I thought I had gone crazy for a while.
Jul. 18th, 2011 04:10 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you liked it, thank you :)
And I wrote the thing, imagine how crazy I was going trying to be in that headspace all the time :D
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Rachel 'racecar' Pearson
Oct. 6th, 2011 04:50 pm (UTC)
I can't even explain how much I love you for this. I cried in all the happy parts.. and SOMEHOW managed to not cry from sadness, all the way up until

~Frank stood up and smiled for the first time all day. “Of course,” he said. He picked the pieces of paper up off the table and tucked them carefully inside his wallet.
Markman’s suspicions were immediately aroused. “I thought you said it was just nonsense,” she said and stood up to stare Frank down.
Frank returned the wallet to the back pocket of his jeans. “Yeah,” he said, “but it was his nonsense.”~

I MEAN COME ON!! wefgbwiuefvbwivueff why did you do this to me?!?!?!?!?!?!?1 It's so heartbreaking. I am a little upset that he gave up his gloves only one year later... should've waited like 3 years... I know I wouldn't have gotten over Gerard so quickly, if I was Frank.

BUT STILL! You're a genius. You managed to pull off like an extremely intelligent-sounding story without over-using fancy words and description and whatnot... And using the names of real people helped put the image in people's heads without HAVING to include descriptions.

Just..UGH! I don't know how often you get this, but marry me? Simply... marry me.
Oct. 7th, 2011 11:47 pm (UTC)
Hey, it's cool that you like the fic and all, but you might not want to post a spoilery excerpt on the masterpost where new readers might see it ;)

Sorry if it comes off as bitchy, it's totally not meant to be lol.
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Oct. 22nd, 2011 09:33 pm (UTC)
What's the word count?
whats the word count for the whole story?
we're doing online reading and i'm supposed to write the words and the author :)
Oct. 23rd, 2011 06:08 am (UTC)
Re: What's the word count?
I don't have an exact wordcount but i'd say it's about 144 500 words. Hope that helps :)
Yoselyne Carrera
Oct. 29th, 2011 01:48 am (UTC)
i will never be able to read other fanfics for this has permanently topped the rest forever. You're writing is AMAZING, you're freakishly gifted.
Nov. 1st, 2011 01:23 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! You have completely made my day :)
Nov. 4th, 2011 05:45 pm (UTC)
There are no words in my vocabulary good enough to express how much I loved this story. It was so captivating. Your style of writing is absolutely incredible, I felt like I was living through it myself. No joke, last night after I finished reading I actually dreamed that I was like Gerard and was trying to run away from Them, it was really intense! I doubt there will be another fic that will have that effect on me again any time soon. Am genuinely sad that it is over and I'm actually tempted just to read it all again! <3<3<3
Nov. 5th, 2011 08:34 am (UTC)
:D! Gosh, thank you so much!
It is seriously cool that you even dreamt about it; what an awesome dream too! (In my opinion, ha)

Thank you for taking the time to read it and then comment. It's really appreciated xx
Nov. 22nd, 2011 05:16 pm (UTC)
I have ALOT to say about this story. Okay, first off this is and will now forever be my favorite story of all time. The detail you used the way you formed each and every characters personalities was breath taking. I sat the whole day locked away in my room reading this until I was finished and it really broke my heart when it ended because I just wanted it to go on forever. The whole way through the story I pretty much had a general idea of what was going to happen to Gerard and I kept telling myself don't get too attached to his character because it's just gonna hurt you when he goes. I cried insanely at the end of this story. After I read every last bit of it and I sat back and just thought about it, I cried.I cried for Gerard, I cried for Frank, Markman, Mikey, and then I thought of people that really do suffer from Gerard's condition and I cried even more. Any story that can have that much meaning and a hold on me is amazing. The whole way through I was hoping and wishing Gerard would get better even though in the back of my head I knew he wasn't. I really want to re-read it and I know sooner or later i'm going to, but I just have to take time to collect myself first, haha. I couldn't possibly think of a way to explain to you how much I adored this fanfic as much as I did. I just want to thank you for writing such a beautiful piece and this story will forever be in my mind and heart.
Nov. 25th, 2011 10:39 pm (UTC)
What you had to say meant a lot to me and I thank you a million times for taking the time to say it. Thank you so much for your kind words and for reading. I'm so thrilled you liked it.

Thank you
Dec. 28th, 2011 04:07 am (UTC)
Yeah so it's just over a month since I read this for the first time and I'm now about to read it again. In that month I have read A LOT of other fics, but I can honestly say that none of them could top this. Not even close! :D <3<3<3
Jan. 1st, 2012 01:17 am (UTC)
:D That means so much to me to read that! :D Thank you!
Day = made :)
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Dec. 29th, 2011 11:19 am (UTC)
My first and favorite; and maybe this makes me a geek-
Yours was the first Frerard fanfiction I read, and is still by far my favorite. It's breathtaking, heartbreaking, and just plain perfect. I will admit you had me in tears by the end.
...*Ahem* So, as I went to make a frerard video, I couldn't help but dedicate it to this fic. I'm certainly not here self-advertising... Just wanted you to know how much I admired this fic. I don't have a livejournal account, so do forgive the Anon. :)

Jan. 1st, 2012 01:22 am (UTC)
Re: My first and favorite; and maybe this makes me a geek-
I'm so honoured to pop your frerard cherry! :D I'm so glad and excited you liked it so much!
Oh, and that video is probably the nicest thing anyone has ever done for this fic and i'm am legit touched and amazed and honoured by it. Seriously, you are amazing, thank you so much!
Feb. 21st, 2012 05:56 am (UTC)
Hey, I don't have an LJ account so I'm on anon, but my name is Megan and I adore this fic like no other. I wrote about it on my tumblr in this post: http://infalliblequilibrium.tumblr.com/post/17884201404/so-i-just-read-my-first-mcr-fic-i-guess-you you don't have to read it but it's there if you like :) just wanted to express how excellent this is.
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:14 am (UTC)
Re: Speechless.
Hey Megan,
Thank you so much for reading. I'm so glad you liked it! :D My friend actually saw your tumblr post before you posted it here and sent it to me and I remember telling her how teary I got at how nice you were, thank you so much!
Mar. 18th, 2012 02:03 am (UTC)
This is such a great story, it keeps you guessing. Im reading it through now for the second time and everything makes so much more sense. Thanks for a terrific read! And does Mikey get better?
Mar. 19th, 2012 03:56 am (UTC)
I'm so excited you liked it! :) Thank you so much for reading and commenting!

And in regards to your question about Mikey: He wouldn't get "better" but he'd continue to improve and regain some cognitive function over time.
May. 9th, 2012 12:52 am (UTC)

This is a place to discuss the story and an easy way to share with friends. Enjoy!
May. 9th, 2012 12:53 am (UTC)
and yes, it is rightfully credited to the AMAZING author :)
May. 20th, 2012 01:33 pm (UTC)
Can I aak a favor? Coukd you please tell me what you had in mind for the 24 words? Its literally driving me insane...like evertime im not thinking about those 24 words im doing algebra. Halp me gooby ;-; pls
May. 24th, 2012 04:58 am (UTC)
Sorry, no can do. It was meant to remain a secret!
Jun. 14th, 2012 10:05 am (UTC)
I've just read the entire story through, and it's freaking amazing man. You are a seriously good writer, and this is one of the best stories I've read in a while.

You did a really good job portraying Gerard, and making his hallucinations seem feasible. I'm still wondering what was actually up with things, considering how he actually knew things. I'm guessing the last time he saw Frank was a hallucination, which whilst being really sad, is kinda freaky.

This whole thing is seriously great, and I'll probably read it again at some point in the not too far future!

Jun. 25th, 2012 07:01 am (UTC)
:] Gosh, you're so nice, thank you so much!! Thank you for reading and taking the time to comment :D
And yeah, the last time he saw Frank was a halluncination, I put that fact in the FAQs just for others if they didn't realise.

Hope it's just as good the second time around!
Jun. 18th, 2012 04:26 pm (UTC)
A Splitting of The Mind
This is honestly the best fan fiction I have ever read and I think it's better than any book I've ever read too.
I think you're an amazing writer! Better than amazing!
Have you ever thought about writing another fan fiction?
Jun. 25th, 2012 07:02 am (UTC)
Re: A Splitting of The Mind
Wow, i'm honoured by your words, thank you so much!! You really made my day :]
I've thought about writing a new fic every single day since finishing this one but sadly I never actually do it. I have lots of ideas. Maybe one day!
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